So…I’m Kimyatta and I have a lot to say…I’m sort of shy in person and sometimes I do not say everything that is on my mind when I want to or need to. I figured though, perhaps I should write some of it down. I discovered that I can say LOTS of things when I write it down!!! The floodgates opened and the words burst forth!!!
First, I’ll give you a little about me…
The very first thing most people notice about me upon meeting me in person, is that I am overweight. Heck..lets not dress it up. I’m fat. It is an ugly truth but it is one that I live with. Gosh darn it doo hickey to heck! I’m trying!!!!! This healthy lifestyle stuff is hard! I’m doing the best I can with what I’ve got!
With that being said, I do not get offended when folks call me fat because it is a truth. What’s the point in getting upset over something that is true? I’ve been fat as far as I can remember. Even as early as first grade, I remember being called fat. So, it leaves me to wonder, what happened? I’ve been fat my ENTIRE life…(well..I was born at 6 pounds 8 oz…but anyway…)…SO, what’s a girl to do? Accept it or change it…better yet…BOTH!
I accept where I am in my journey. While I am overweight (like..a LOT), I do not have high blood pressure, diabetes or any other obesity related disease. Do my feet and ankles hurt from carrying me around? YEP. Do I get tired when I walk? YEAH. Do I have a hard time getting off the floor? HECK YEAH! Am I doing something about it? Yup…I’m making better choices about what I eat and I try to get some activity in. I have that goal of walking a little each day and increasing as I am physically able to do more.
Now, while I don’t get offended when people call me fat…I do get TICKED off when people fat bash. Don’t know what fat bashing is? Oh, that’s when people make sweeping general statements about fat people that couldn’t be farther from the truth. For example, fat people are lazy. Not true. Well, it’s not true about me. Sometimes, I’m just friggin’ tired! BUT, I do a LOT of things that make me tired. Exercising, being a mom, working, blah blah blah. Yes, I get tired easier than some other folks (for now) but that DOES NOT = lazy. I recently read where a celebrity said something like, “when you get your fat, nasty self in the shower…” Umm…excuse me…yes, I’m fat. I am not NASTY! I wash my body ALL OVER…EVERY DAY (coupla times a day too!). Now, that’s not what he meant by nasty, but people do think that we don’t bathe for some reason. Garbage on a stick I say! Have some couth people! UGH.
I know for certain that I am judged based on how I look. Just yesterday, I attended a career fair. At one of the tables, a man sat and the positions advertised were listed. I stopped to talk to him. This LMNOP (I don’t cuss for real, so there will be groups of letters and strange words where expletives would be for regular folks)…but anyway…this LMNOP sat there constantly looking around at other people. I told him my name was Sunflower and he didn’t even hear it. I left my resume’ with him, but I’m cool if he doesn’t call. That’s how people do me a lot though. They decide before they ever hear what I’m talking about if what I have to say is worth it. I get discounted a lot that way, but whoever dismisses me just from looking at me does NOT know what they are missing. I am magnificent! ABSOLUTELY MAGNIFICENT!
Anyway, I suppose I’ve ranted enough, but that’s the first thing you should know about me. Let’s go ahead and get it out of the way, because I don’t want you to wonder when a few posts down the line I post something off the wall about me being fat….no surprises!
So, the next time you see a fat person walking towards you, instead of sucking in your stomach and squeezing your butt cheeks together to look smaller, just relax and smile! Say hello. I promise, we don’t want to swallow you whole! 😀