I know I just made a post this morning but I could not let the night end without posting another one this evening. It’s a big day!
People finish Master’s Degrees every day, so why is this such a big deal? I’m glad you asked. I started my Master’s journey in 2007. I had taken a year off after finishing my undergraduate degree. Unfortunately, I was not mentally prepared. I tried my darnedest but for whatever reason, I simply was NOT motivated to complete the course work. I took a break and started again at the same school. Same thing happened! I would do fine for the first class and earn an A with a perfect score. The second class though, yep, that one would get me. Repeat the same process with THREE other schools over the four years that followed. I finally decided to stop telling people that I was working on my Master’s because at that point I didn’t believe that I would ever finish it. Finally, in September of 2011, I found a perfect program. It was at a Christian school and the professors cared. They checked on me when I was missing assignments. Best of all, the program was only 10 classes and would take me just 1 year to finish. They even accepted credit from other programs I’d been in.
That was exciting. I zoomed through the first class. The second class gave me trouble but I managed to make it through. The third class came and I came to one of the discussion questions that made my head hurt. I literally could not even remember my name when I was in that course! I decided to give up forever and always and figured that my B.S. was going to be good enough for me.
Fast forward to January 2012. A friend needed help with a Statistics class for her graduate degree. I helped her for the semester and somewhere in there, I regained my love of learning. I also learned that I was pursuing my Master’s in the wrong program! Well, not the ENTIRE wrong program, but just the specialization. So, after finding what I was missing, I contacted my advisor at the same school and let her know that I was ready to get in to finish. Still, I didn’t tell anyone that I had re-enrolled. I didn’t want to disappoint anyone or worse, have people looking at me with that side-eyed glance like, “yeah right”…so, I kept pressing. That same class that gave me a headache before tried to trip me up but I was able to make it through. I earned an A-. Fine. I’m cool with that. The classes came and went. I got to the next to the last three classes and I hit a rock! The book I needed was 160 bucks! If you read my story in the Motherhood Diaries, then you KNOW why this was an issue! Anyway, I had to withdraw just before Christmas. I. Was. Devastated. How could I be THIS close to finishing my degree and have to stop because I couldn’t afford the book? I tried EVERYTHING. I emailed the company to even see if I could get a trial copy (they never responded). My advisor tried to find out if I could get a desk copy. The public library didn’t have it and no one responded to the request for an Interlibrary Loan. The e-book was $119.00 (dude…seriously? an e-book?). They even had a loose leaf student edition for ONE HUNDRED EIGHT DOLLARS! There were NO USED BOOKS! Did I mention that at the time my car had JUST been repaired from a blown head gasket and had the radiator replaced? So, even though RENTING the book was only going to cost $63.00, I was not able to get it. On TOP of that, there was some online toolkit that might have needed to be purchased. <ACK>
Well, January rolled around and all I could do was PRAY! I started my class again, and THANKFULLY the book I rented was BRAND NEW and the toolkit’s subscription code had NOT been used. Thank you JESUS! So, Anyway, I started up at the end of January 2013…and FINALLY, I have submitted my last paper!
So, the next time you see Daffy Duck running and screaming like only he can, just clap for him. He’s been through a lot and is just grateful for the new opportunities that await him.
Until next time,