So…why don’t earthworms bury their dead?

The other morning I woke up in one of my moods…I did not care to exercise.  I wanted to quit.  I got mad because it should be easier to decide to take steps to be healthy…I just keep thinking…”Fit folks don’t have to do this!”  So, I wanted to give up…I go through this often..so no alarm…All winter and much of April, I lamented about the weather preventing me from getting my walk on since my preferred method of exercise is walking through my fine town.  I get to see all the beautiful historic homes on my route and when I’m in for a long walk, I get to take in our historic downtown area.  Well how much nicer can you get with 58 degrees in the morning?  Yeah, I’ve been lazy. So…I pushed..and fought and fussed..and hemmed and hawed and all of that…then I got up and put my clothes on to walk.

Instead of staying in the neighborhood, I ventured out and walked towards downtown through the aforementioned scenery.  Part of this trip is on a sidewalk next to grassy areas.  This morning I noticed an alarming number of dead earthworms when I walked.  This completely and totally creeped me out!  It made my skin crawl.  I know…I know…they can’ t hurt me…but that doesn’t change how it made me feel.  Every now and then, I’d come across one that was still alive and was pushing through trying to get to its destination.  No matter how dehydrated, flattened or whatever it was, it kept trying it’s darnedest to get to wherever it was going!  I tried to scoot on past them but the lesson had already been taught.

I pressed on and finished my walk.  I didn’t make it all the way downtown…but I did manage to get my 40 minutes in at a decent pace.  The entire walk though, all I kept thinking about was those earthworms.  Those poor ones that were still on the sidewalk who lost their fight and the ones that were still struggling to make it.  I realized that the ones who continued to fight, even the hopeless ones with partially flattened bodies are fighting.  Do they know that their fight is hopeless?  Who knows, but I see their little wiggling selves trying and trying and trying.  That told me that no matter what, I should just keep fighting.  Keep hoping.  Keep moving.  Do. Not. Give. Up.

One of my challenges in my journey is not seeing many people who’ve had success starting from where I did.  When I do find folks who’ve lost as much weight as I have to lose, I only see their end result and their maintenance phases.  But I want to see where they started…their frustrations.  It’s hard to find their stories from the beginning.  When you stop seeing results, you get discouraged and it’s easier to just quit.  I guess I’ll be like the earthworm though…I’ll press through…and keep wiggling and pushing and trying to make it to my destination until there is no more breath in me.  Yep…that’ll do it…

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata

So…yeah…mmm hmm…

So…since it was too cold to walk outside this morning…and I haven’t exercised in a few days, I knew I needed to do SOMETHING…so I looked at my Pinterest boards and found a quick work out that was simple…called Starting Ten.  Here it is:

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Seems simple enough.  It was…but lawdy…it’s a good quick way to get your heart rate up.  but here’s my problem…I’m still faily large even though I’m 70 pounds down from my heaviest and 47 pounds down since May…(well..technically September because I’d gained and lost…)…ANYWHO…jumping is something that is a challenge.  I’m delighted to say that even though I jumped and heard my thighs, stomach and buttocks applaud, I did it anyway.  I hate that sound.  I hate it with a passion.  It’s the same sound I hear when I run.  I’ll keep doing it though, because eventually, the only clapping will be from my hands applauding myself for not giving up and continuing my healthy lifestyle.

Doing this through the holiday season is so hard because I’ve always just allowed myself to overindulge just like everyone else and say I’ll start again at the new year.  This year it’s different though.  Now…don’t get me wrong…I will have cake!  I’m just going to be very mindful of my portions and will also keep finding workouts that are indoor friendly even if I have to hear my body clap as I do them.  The main thing is…I’m not quitting…

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata

So…there’s no God?

So…there’s no God?

So…yesterday, I woke up feeling horrid. My stomach and head were both not cooperating with my wellness plan. I snoozed twice but finally forced myself out of bed to get my walking done for the day. I was completely exhausted, achy and nauseous. I wanted nothing more than to stay in my bed under the covers. I finally beat my flesh and got out of bed. I walked my usual route and when I got to the ten minute mark, I was delighted to find that my speed was about four minutes faster than normal and I had walked farther in that 10 minutes than I usually do. Considering how I felt, I was very surprised. Then, I felt what I thought was a raindrop. I looked up at the sky and saw the clearest sky and the beautiful scattering of stars. Oh my wow! The sky was absolutely beautiful at 5:45 am. I was able to make out the big dipper and was suddenly overwhelmed with awe. In that moment I could feel God’s awesomeness. I wondered how people say there is no God. Something like that happened just by chance?! Uh…no…I don’t think so! I was close to my turn around point and when I walked back my the same area less than three minutes later, the same part of the sky was now cloud covered. At that moment, I was thankful God let me see a little bit of His awesomeness just minutes before. After that, I felt like I was being carried. I made my distance in record time this morning. My app that I use to track my walking gave me a sticker or badge or whatever that said, “flying”. I was laughing because I sure felt like it. I can’t describe it. I mean, I knew I was walking because…well..that’s what I set out to do! Aside from that, I could feel my legs working. It was truly amazing.

So, I will continue to worship the Lord with my body because I am fearfully and wonderfully made. That’s what He says about me. It’s in His word! How special is that?

This leads me to thinking about India.Arie’s God is Real.  It’s quite thought provoking.  I love it.  You should listen to it here:  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XxZ2KBXDEcM

So the next time you’re out and you think there’s rain coming, just look up. You’ll be amazed at the wonders around you.

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata

So…Why did Forrest run?

So…Why did Forrest run?

One of my favorite actors is Tom Hanks.  I can watch him in absolutely anything.  My favorite movie of his is Forrest Gump.  You know the story…Forrest is distraught of Jenny’s disappearance…and he jumps up off the porch and starts running.  Later, when Forrest is being interviewed, they ask why is he running.  Surely, he’s running across the country from coast to coast, he must be running for a cause.  Forrest’s reason for running was, “I just felt like running.”  Simple.  That was all.  He just felt like it.

Sometimes, that’s all it takes to get you started.  You suddenly feel like it.  That’s not to say that you can’t do something when you don’t feel like it, but sometimes, there’s just no defining moment or super motivation to do something other than just wanting to.  That’s where I am with this exercise thing.  I’m glad…because for awhile there…I was stuck on I HAVE to…which made getting up out of bed each morning to exercise such a daunting task.

Funny though, I didn’t realize that it had become, “I just felt like…” until a week or so ago, I went to go wake my work out partner so we could go to the gym…and she was VERY sleepy…ordinarily, I would have used that as an excuse to not go and go back to bed.  That day though, I surprised myself.  I said to her, “alright..if you don’t get up, I’m going without you!”  For a quick minute, I wondered who had said that…lol…but she got up anyway.  I’m glad that I felt that way.  It changed the way my workouts went.

Lately, I’ve been enjoying walking outside…I’ve taken to the hilly path to the shopping center across the street.  It’s been an interesting walking time.  Now, I have to say, if I want to go to Burger King, we can go if we walk, because I walked up there this morning.  I didn’t go to buy anything, but I was out gettin’ my exercise on!  Over the past month, my walking time has increased from 20 minutes to 50 minutes!  That’s exciting because I’m burning more calories!  OH YEAH!

It’s funny…when I walk sometimes, people encourage me on.  I hear strangers say things like, “That’s right girl!”  or “You go girl!”  I’ve even heard people say, “I’m so proud of you…keep it up.”  It helps.  It makes me feel good…then I get ticked of a little…not because they are cheering me on, but because at that moment, it seems as if they assume I’m ready to quit.  No.  I’m working hard…that sweat? Yeah, I’m tired…but I’m pressing on.  I don’t REALLY get mad, but it’s just a fleeting thought.  I usually just smile and wave.  Sometimes, people say things like, “I should be out there with you…”  I always encourage them and say, “Come on!”  One lady wanted me to wait on her while she went and got her shoes.  I told her I’d catch her on may way back.  She wanted me to come knock on her door each morning when I walked.  My thoughts on that was if I give you the time I’m going to walk, why not just be ready and come on and walk.   Anyway, this is my journey not anyone else’s.  I don’t mind having people walk with me but I can’t let someone else’s lack of motivation deter me.

So…I journey on.  I just felt like running.  (well..not running..but you know..walking…)

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata

So…Working Out…whew!

So…Working Out…whew!

So…one thing I’ve learned over my many years of trying to lose weight is that the workout is important.  But good grief!  I ACHE ALL OVER!  I found out that I have extra places that did not previously exist!  GOOD GRIEF CHARLIE BROWN!  Alas, it’s a good hurt.  Knowing that I am improving my overall well-being is making me smile through the ache.  Best of all, I’ve found that I have THE BEST workout partner ever!

When I’m looking for excuses, she lets me have NONE.  When 5 am rolls around and I don’t want to go, she is bright and shiny (though I can’t get her up at 5 am for anything else!).  My work out partner is always around and always encouraging me.  Her name?  The Girl.  Yep.  The Girl.  Who knew?!  All this time, I’d wanted an adult work out partner because I knew I could have someone to chat with while I worked out.  Turns out, I needed the little 11 year old girl who would encourage me to get on up and go and tell me that I “can do it!” to come along with me.  While we don’t talk while we’re working out, we are getting to spend some quality time together.  I’m also leading by example on what healthy living looks like.

So, we’re getting fit, fine and fabulous together!  I love it!  Even though she’s entering those torrid teen years where she’ll probably hate me and not want to talk to me for days at a time, we’re building our relationship now…getting a good foundation.  Today though..she probably hates me from being sore! She is also making sure that I eat breakfast each morning.  I mean, she cooks if needed…heats up, brings it to me…whatever!  She is taking care of her mama!

I’m grateful…so grateful.  She helps me more than I ever knew she could.  My little sugar bean is growing up…today, when I took her to her summer program, she asked if I was still tired.  I told her I was and she said, “well you need to just take a day off mom.  You need some rest.”  Aww…yup…I guess I’ll need to remember all of this when she’s learning to drive and my knuckles are turning white from gripping the seats.

ANYhoooooo….Good news…the scale gods have visited and made my scale be nice!  It appears…I’ve lost 14 pounds!  WOOOOO HOOOOOOOO!!!  Now, given my size, some folks may say 14 pounds is nothing…but to those folks…POOH ON YOU!  I’m not in it for a competition.  My competition is that chick looking at me in the mirror.  I’m doing it for her.  And if it is going down, we’re happy.  So…yay me!

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So…we’ll keep at it…keep pushing…keep hurting…until the deed is done…Words of wisdom from The Girl, “Mom, you just have to keep at it until it becomes a habit.”  Really now? lol…Gotta love her!

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata