So…Kimyatta, Kimyatta, Where Art Thou?

Hello hello followers!  Have you missed me?  I’ve certainly missed my writing.  When I first started this blog…my goal was to write three times a week.  That dwindled to something like once a week…to once a month…to..”when was the last time I blogged?”

God has certainly turned some things around in my life since the last time I wrote…back in MAY….wondering why earthworms don’t bury their dead…May is the time of year when I would always get antsy about my job hunt because that’s when there are many in my field that are posted.  So, though that post was about my weight loss, it encouraged me to press forward in my job search.  I remembered that when I wished every one a happy new year, I talked about my one word…which is two words for the year: Persevere and Dream…I knew I couldn’t give up.  Even though, for four years, I’d tried and tried to find something in my field, I had not secured a position.  Though the positions were plentiful, it seemed as though the right one for me was either hiding or not in the field as I had hoped.

Well, it turns out, I was on the right track but I had to keep pressing and pressing and pressing.  Through all the muck and the mire, I had to keep trying.  I can’t tell you how many tears I cried after applying for over 1000 positions for which I qualified but not receiving a single phone call for an interview for the first two years.  Then, I finally started getting calls, but they were far from where I lived (why did I apply in those places though).  I think I just wanted to be open to ever opportunity available.

In my last position at the call center, I finally started being honest and would ask for the time off instead of calling off sick when I had an interview.  When the time wasn’t granted, I would still go, but just let my supervisor know that I had some important business to take care of and would be either late coming in or late returning from lunch.  She knew I longed to leave.  So, when I turned in my resignation, she wasn’t surprised a bit.

You read that right.  I turned in my resignation at the call center and my last day there was July 31!  I don’t think I had been that happy since the birth of my daughter!  Anyway, I’m back in my field.  My daughter and I have moved…The theme song from the television show The Jeffersons is certainly apropos to our  situation.  We packed up in three weeks to move across the metro area.  I moved from a small town that was quiet and had fewer than 15000 people in the city and just over 100,000 folks in the county to a place with nearly 700,000 folks in the county.  That’s kinda scary.  Surely not what we’re used to but we are adjusting.

I’m loving my new job.  I do my best each and every day because I know it’s what I was called to do.  I think back to the year my focus changed from my outward circumstances to my inward attitude and I see how I was being prepared for this.  I could not have changed with the negative attitude I had.  I was also sooooo close to giving up.  That dude on the bottom of this photo was almost me…but I kept going and I hit my diamonds!

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I can’t tell you how excited I was to get that phone call that told me I had the job.  The boss could hear the excitement in my voice.  Kinda felt like I’d won a million dollars.  The team I work with is awesome.  I’m grateful for the change.  A lot has changed since the last time I worked in my field but one thing hasn’t.  This is what I’m supposed to be doing.  Good days and bad days alike, I’m grateful for finally being in a place where I feel like I belong.  I feel like I fit!

So, more to come about the continuous battle with the scale and writing!  I have to tell you about my wonderful writing workshop with Victoria Christopher Murray!  And of course, I have to give you more stories about The Girl..who is now 13 and making me earn every dollar I get paid for being a mommy…(wait..my bad! I don’t get paid for that!)  Well she is sure making me earn my title (and these new gray hairs!).  By the way, I finally eased up and let her have a blog.  She’s over at http://www.kamsayshi.wordpress.com .  When you read her posts…you’ll say..”yup…she belongs to Kimyatta”…

Anywho…I promise not to be a stranger and next time won’t be so far away…

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata

 

So…I Can’t…

So…I Can’t…

So…I feel like I’m going in reverse some days.  All the things I’ve done to improve myself seem to have been for naught.  I look at the scale…it’s going up.  I look at my walking app and I’ve only walked twice in 2014.  My vision board isn’t completed…my visual representation of my one (well two) word(s) isn’t complete.  I’m not eating the way I need to.  My book edits will never be done.  I just keep looking at all of this and thinking…just quit.  What’s the point?  You’ll have to do this for the rest of your life.  Why don’t you just quit??

Well…the fact of the matter is…I can’t…I can not…it’s impossible.  If I give up now…I will be stuck..forever.  I may not be fully aware of God’s purpose for my life…but I know that by working at the pieces that have been revealed to me…then I can eventually get to whatever it is I’m supposed to do.  No one said it was going to be easy.  That’s the beauty of perseverance.  You have to keep on keeping on.  That keeping on today might look like 3 inches, but tomorrow, it might be 16 miles.  My challenge to myself..and everyone is to do the very best you can each and every day.

If you look at yesterday and yesterday is STILL the best you ever did…then you haven’t worked hard enough today..(read that on a meme on Facebook…makes sense to me!)  Yesterday, the girl and I watched an episode of The Big Bang Theory.  Howard has been to space and all of his friends and his wife seem to think that he makes every conversation about him going to space.  While that was something big and important in his life, he is holding on to that one thing.  He isn’t even looking toward other things for his future.  He is also not currently working on anything to make it greater.  Now, I don’t know how exactly an astronaut tops going to space…but my point is, your big thing…shouldn’t be your only big thing…do something better.  Spread that knowledge to others…contribute.

Don’t be stagnant.  If you have a bad day…well…chuck it…If you wake up the next day..then you have another chance to get it right.  The biggest thing?  Don’t give up.  Don’t can’t.

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Remove it from your vocabulary.  If you say you can’t do something…guess what…you’re right.  But do you really want to be?

And guess what??  My scale is going to go up and down..but that doesn’t make my weight loss journey any less significant.  My walking app and I…well..the two times I walked this year were this week.  Before that..I hadn’t walked in 3 weeks…but…I started again!  That’s what’s important.  My vision board…is it ever REALLY complete?  It’s ever evolving.  My one word piece…I’ll get it done…I know my word.  But I do want to have it in my face so that when I have days like this…when I want to quit, I’m reminded to push on.  Eating…well..good news…going to the grocery store tomorrow!  (gotta have the right stuff in the house to eat right…right?)…and my edits…yes…my happy go lucky blankety blank edits…I’m pushing through them…I’m going with the flow…because I know I wrote an awesome story.  I want it to be the best it can be before I make it public…SO…I press on!  What about you??

Until next time,

Hakuna Matata